I’ve just seen a face I can’t forget

-I’ve Just Seen a Face, by the Beatles. (The version I’ve got is from the Across the Universe soundtrack).

I lied in my last entry. I mentioned Dad getting laid off but that won’t happen until the third week in November.


Today (yesterday) was a decent day. I pretty much spent the entire day listening to Boston and Journey, drawing, and having wine coolers. I was thinking, This would be the perfect day if I didn’t have to work, but with my habit of both dreading and looking forward to work, I couldn’t really say that.

I honestly had like, four wine coolers and a beer. I started at like 9am. I watched a bit of tv, but I didn’t do much else the entire day. Well. I did a bit of shopping. Went to Sally’s Beauty Supply, didn’t find what I wanted. Browsed Hobby Lobby and Hy-Vee, because they were in the same area. Ended up getting 2 six packs of wine coolers. There was a sale, and I had to make up a couple of my parents’ wine coolers that I’d had. After that, I went to Goodwill, where I found a couple records, (one by ELO, and one by Simon and Garfunkel), and a couple stemware glasses. Then I went to Wal-Mart, where I got UV Cherry, some more ranch salad dressing, and some pringles chips. I meant to look for under the bed rubbermaid containers but I forgot.

After that I went home, and both dreaded/looked forward to work.

My brother had stayed overnight with a friend, he wasn’t home until like, four. We ate dinner, then I pretty much had to be at work.

It was both awesome, and torture. Torture because of the hyperactive little 14 year old twit I work with, and awesome/torture because of this guy I’ve got a crush on. He has these amazing eyes, and his smile just lights up a whole room. I just wish I’d had the guts to talk to him.
Well, okay. I hadn’t been at work too long, but I was putting something away in the back room, and he was back there, and I said like “Sorry, I’m in your way again” and he said “That’s okay, I’ll share” or something like that. Now, I wasn’t sure how to interpret that, in a “it’s okay you’re not in my way” or “It’s okay, be in my way” sort of way. Men are so confusing.

But honestly. Sure. Some of my crushes may have ended up being worse but I can’t remember them ever being this bad this fast.

My brother says from what he’s heard the cook might like me, and I wish that was the case, but I don’t know. I wish I worked tomorrow so I could ask him out. I don’t think he’s already taken, but… Shit. He’s driving me nuts. He’s just.. I don’t know. He’s got these amazing eyes.. And his cute brown hair.. and just.. I don’t know. He’s just amazing, and I can’t explain it.

Anyway. I stayed after work a tiny bit, I had a drink with a few of my co-workers. I played a few songs on the internet jukebox (Immagrant Song and another song by Led Zeppelin, Bohemian Rhapsody by Queen, Saturday Night’s Alright for Fighting by Elton John, Who Are You by The Who, Carry On Wayward Son by Kansas, etc) Then I left and watched Across the Universe with my brother. He went to bed after it was over but I’m still up, as I don’t often get the chance to stay up until all hours, and I’m taking advantage. Still. I might not get to bed until five or six am, and I’ll still be up by like ten.

Well, I’m off to play guitar for a tiny bit, I’ll be back later.