Day 136.

Today was decent in most respects. I woke up right around 4:15. I think I set my alarm for like 4:20 so that was good. Alarms I set almost never go off. I’ll wake up 5 minutes before they’re going to go off.  I can’t tell if my body would just naturally know when to wake up, or if it wakes me up so I won’t have to be scared awake by an alarm.

That really is the most unpleasant way to wake up. You’re in a deep sleep, and then you get ripped out of it by a damn alarm and you have to sit there for a few minutes before your heart stops pounding. Not fun.

I got on the road a little earlier than I did yesterday, which wasn’t really an issue except that it’s a little darker. And I did see a few bats, but I told myself they were birds over and over, so it made that a little easier (I’m afraid of bats even though they pose no threat). I did have to back track because I forgot to leave a paper at an apartment, but that was really my only issue.

I was done at around 6am,  so that was cool. I could actually sleep in until 4:45 and probably still get all the papers delivered on time,(by 6:30) but I don’t like feeling rushed.

I tried to sleep at like, 7am, but mom was getting ready for work, and there was just too much ambient noise. And it was way too light out. I need one of those eye masks, I think. I don’t know. I like having some ambient noise, but with all the birds chirping, and people driving to work, and the tv and my parents talking, I couldn’t sleep.

I was kind of tired all day and didn’t really have much energy. I’m just going to have to get calibrated to this new system of doing things. I’m sure that in a week or two it’ll be second nature to go to bed at 9 or 10 and wake up at 4:15 or 4:30. It’s just the getting there that’s going to be weird.

I have to get used to eating at different times. I’m used to eating breakfast at 7:30 or 8. This morning I ate a granola bar and drank  a glass of water while I was packing up the newspapers, and that helped a lot, but when I get home I’m hungry. I did eat a little bit when I got home. I hadn’t intended the granola bar to be my breakfast anyway. I just wanted to avoid that unpleasant low blood sugar feeling I had yesterday.

ANYWAY. It’s really strange eating breakfast so early, because then it’ll only be 9:30, and I’ll be starving because usually when I’ve been up for 5 hours, it’s time for lunch. And it can’t be time for lunch when it’s only 9:30. So from 9:30 until about 11 I end up having to fight off the urge to eat.

I don’t go overboard and eat a lot, but I am going to have to manage that hunger so I don’t undo all the exercise I’m getting every day. I’m excited about that, actually.  I want to keep delivering the paper for as long as I can (because I kind of actually enjoy it) but I just can’t see myself biking clear across town in mid December, you know? The roads will be too icy/snowy, and my bike is not built for that kind of terrain, but I won’t want to quit because I’ll be losing my exercise regimen, and possibly my only source of income.

I hope to get a permanent job, and in the event that I do, I won’t put in my 30 days notice until early or mid October. Eh, whatever. I don’t have to worry about that for a while, so I won’t.

+A granola bar, at 4:20 in the morning.
+One toaster strudel

+a spicy black bean meatless burger (Morningstar farms) and some cheddar sun chips.

+Chunks of beef marinated in this sesame ginger marinade, a bottle of which has been in our pantry for ages. Also had some minute rice, and some lettuce with ranch and a few walnuts on it.

Also, I had like… two fortune cookies, a bowl of cereal, some graham crackers with this praline pecan stuff on them, and some circus peanuts (Every time I talk about those online I want to say “packing peanuts” and those are certainly not things I eat.. Lol).

Now, I’m off to make my nightly cup of calm down time tea (chamomile, usually) and submit an art blog entry.


See the paper layin’ in the sidewalk, a little music from the house next door. So I walked on up to the doorstep, through the screen and across the floor…

-“Summer Breeze”, by Seals and Crofts.

Well, today was my first day delivering papers. I have delivered shoppers in the past, and had a paper route in 2006 I believe.

I had my phone alarm set for 4:30, but I was awake at 3:45. I went to bed at like 9:30 last night so it wasn’t too bad. I tried to doze a little but I ended up just getting up at around 4:15 or so. I was out the door slightly before 5. On the bike ride to the area my route is in, I snorted a mayfly. I assume it was a mayfly, there were tons of those things everywhere.

It wasn’t actually that dark, and there is literally no traffic on the road at that hour, so I felt pretty good about that. The houses were pretty easy to find. I had been worried about that, but the streets on my route are pretty much all scrunched together.

I was two papers short when I got to the end of the route. I went and bought a paper at Casey’s, and then I biked home and I was going to ask for money to buy another paper (I was going to deal with telling the manager later) when my mom informed me I had left two papers on the kitchen floor. I was so mad, I swore the entire way back to my route to deliver the last paper. Not loudly, but I swore. Lol.

All in all, even with having to bike all the way home and back to the route, I was only 3 minutes late. The papers are supposed to be delivered by 6:30. So that was pretty cool.

The only thing I need to do differently is either eat breakfast before I leave, or take a small snack with me to eat halfway through, because when I got home, I was feeling a little loopy. I’m sure my blood sugar would appreciate if I didn’t repeat that. When I got home, I ate a bowl of cereal, a piece of candy (they’re called cow tails or whatever), and two fortune cookies. And I drank a diet dr pepper. And then I felt okay

I felt kind of tired for most of the day,  and I probably should have tried to get back to sleep right away, but I didn’t for some reason. I want to go to bed here before too long, but I’m just feeling too… awake. Like, I’m thinking too much and I’m too tense. I’m going to go make a cup of tea, actually, hopefully that calms me down.

It’s hard to get yourself to stop thinking. And you have to avoid going “Oh, you have to calm down, you have to get to sleep because you have to wake up at 4:30” and then you just start thinking about how you can’t sleep because you NEED to sleep…

And also, it’s going to take some getting used to. Usually I start winding down at like… 10:30, maybe even 11pm.  Tonight I’ll probably give it until 9:45 or so.

+cereal, and what I talked about above.

+turkey lunchmeat sandwich, with some taco chips and salsa

+a small cheeseburger, with some cheddar sun chips.

Also had some circus peanuts, a caramel with nougat center, and two fortune cookies (so a total of four today then) .

I need to throw together an art blog entry so I’m running off to do that.

I read the news today, oh boy… {Day 134}

-The Beatles.

Actually that was a lie. I didn’t read the news today, unless Yahoo news counts. I just wanted to find a news related lyric in relation to the newspaper route I’m going to begin tomorrow. If I’m still delivering papers in February, I can sing along with American Pie and I will actually mean it, i.e. “but February made me shiver, with every paper I’d deliver…”.

Out of context lyrics for the win.

Anyway. Today was… windy and stormy. It was stormy and windy at the same time, and remained windy when the storms passed. It’s calmed down a bit now. Actually, I have even given some thought to biking my paper route to see if my plan will work, but I’m in the middle of eating dinner, and it is still windy enough to make bike riding a pain in the ass.

I will be getting up at 4:30, and seeing as I only  have 20 papers to deliver tomorrow, I think I should be able to do that. *knocks on wood* Don’t want to jinx myself. Lol.

Tentatively, I’m thinking it should take about half an hour for me to bag the papers and bike out to the area where my route is. That would put me there at 5am. Which would give me four and a half minutes to deliver each paper. And I seriously doubt that all the houses on my route are filled with cratchety old geezers who will phone in and complain if their paper isn’t there right at 6:30. And hey, if they do, it’s my first day. I’m pretty sure that most people starting a new job are allowed a mistake or two on their first day.

I won’t get paid until like, June 20th or so, but I seriously hope that there are still seats open at the Def Leppard/Heart concert at the Iowa State Fair in August. That is basically going to be my only so called frivolous purchase this entire summer; that and a pair of cheap 80s sunglasses. It’s quite possible that the entire first check I get will go towards that, because I do not want a seat way off to the side, in the nosebleeds. This could possibly be my only chance to see Def Leppard (or Heart, but mostly I care about DL) so… if there are still decent seats left when I get paid, I will be going for them.


Tonight I’m probably going to get to bed at like 9-9:30. I don’t know how tired I’ll be yet, but I want to go to bed early enough so that waking up at 4:30 won’t be so terrible. If I get to sleep around 9:30, I’ll get 7 hours of sleep, which is pretty much my normal amount anyway. I probably won’t get to sleep “right on time” as it were, but it should be fine.


+A pancake

+a half cup of pretzels (I’m guessing, but it couldn’t have been much more than that) and a small slice of cheddar cheese. I ate lunch at like, after 2, and since we usually eat dinner at like… 5 or 6, I thought it was too close to dinner to eat an actual lunch like a sandwich or something.

+two pieces of thin cheese pizza, with two tiny flatbread wedges and probably a spoonful of spinach artichoke dip.

I also had a piece of this caramel candy with a nougat center, a rice krispie treat, a few small pieces torn off the leftover pancake, and I’ll probably eat a cup of yogurt and a couple fortune cookies later.

Don’t think that we don’t know / Don’t think that we’re not trying / Don’t think we move too slow / It’s no use after crying / Saying It’s a mistake… {day 133}

-Men at Work

This morning at 4 am I was rather rudely awakened by a lovely gift courtesy of mother nature. Thankfully I was able to get back to sleep after that was dealt with, but it set up a great backdrop for starting my newspaper route on Monday. Thankfully the worst of it should be gone by then, but I’m still a little annoyed.

It was for that reason that I spent most of my day lying about like a sloth, slowly clawing my way around the house.

I did go to the library with mom to mark book sale books (we volunteer to mark donated books for the library’s book sale) and while attempting to check out two movies I’d been wanting to rewatch (The Disney version of Tarzan, and The Road to El Dorado) I discovered that the library no longer has Tarzan. That was depressing, especially because we don’t have any more video rental stores in the area. Seriously.

All we’ve got is that stupid Redbox shit now, which is fine if you want to watch a newly released movie, but is sadly lacking in the business of movies that are over a year old.

I’m sure the urge to watch the movie will pass, but I will say this; if I find a cheap used dvd copy of Tarzan online, I am going to buy it. I at least want the soundtrack, anyway.

Thankfully, the library did still have the El Dorado movie, which my brother and I watched. It’s a lot funnier than I remember. I wouldn’t actually mind owning that movie either, but I have higher priorities on which to spend my money so that will have to wait.

After that was over, I noticed that Sherlock Holmes was on tv, so I watched that. And may I just say that Robert Downey Jr. is fantastically sexy. Jude Law isn’t bad either but Watson was a bit too clean cut for my taste. Still cute though.

And now I’m here, rambling. I’m having strange, rolling blackout cramps. I’ll feel fine one minute, then the next I’m in  pain for like five minutes, then they’ll go away again. I’m not sure that’s entirely normal, but for now is really not causing any other trouble than being extremely irritating, so I’ll leave it be.

+One egg, fashioned into an omelette, on a toasted whole wheat english muffin. With one slice of smoked turkey lunchmeat, and a slice of cheddar cheese.

+A lunchmeat sandwich, with taco chips and salsa.

+Leftover stir fry from earlier this week.

Also, over the course of the day, I had three s’mores and two glasses of diet dr pepper. So, not exactly a great day in terms of food, but to be honest… I’ve kind of let it slide a little bit for the past couple of days because pretty soon, I’ll be biking for several miles a day, every day, so… I figure it’s not a problem.

Plus, I haven’t gone insane and eaten like a sumo wrestler or anything. And to be honest, I felt really bad about eating those last two s’mores. I also had some marshmallows, before I forget to mention that.

Seriously Firefox, keep up. I should not be able to type faster than a damn web browser can keep up with.

Anyway, I’ve got an art blog entry to post, so I’m off to do that. And fool around online a bit. Tonight is really my last night to sleep in, and tomorrow morning is the last time I’ll be able to sleep until whatever time I want so… yeah. See ya.

Day 132.

Well, it’s day 132, and it’s been rainy and gray the entire day. I seriously don’t think the sun came out once today.

I mean. I like the occasional rainy day, but I wanted to bike to the library today and the crappy weather kept me from doing that.

In other news, I only have two more normal nights of sleep before the newspaper delivery route starts, and I plan on taking advantage of those. I’ve gotten to where I’m getting up at 6:30 and I’m not taking it any earlier than that. In fact, I’ll probably sleep in tomorrow.

It’s going to suck getting up at 4:30 even if I was well prepared,  so for these last two nights, I’m going to stay up as late as I want and sleep in as late as I want. Depending on how long I keep the route, I don’t know how long I’ll be able to do that kind of thing, so I may as well enjoy it while I can.

Also, I just looked over my route list again, and it’s really not that bad at all. I actually can’t believe they’re going to be paying me 76 bucks a month for that shit. Well technically a pay period is 28 days. And I decided to pay 5 bucks a month for their insurance, in case I get hit by a car while delivering papers. So technically it’s only like 71 bucks a month, but whatever.

Plus… another point of defense for my staying up late, one of my bestest friends in the world doesn’t get off work until 11, and who knows, she might be too tired to go on yahoo messenger, but if she’s not, then… we could be up for a couple hours chatting. Who knows.

+A bowl of rice krispies and a yoplait low fat yogurt.

+peanut butter and pickle sandwich (I know it sounds disgusting, but it’s really good), and some original flavor sun chips.

+Chicken stir fry. I had two fortune cookies, and considering a 100 calorie serving size is five cookies, I might have a few more.

I also might have a thing of yogurt if the mood strikes me. We don’t really have many snack type foods around at all, even fruit or frickin granola bars, so I could either see that as an aid to keep me from snacking, or a general nuisance. I’m choosing the latter.

Anyway, I’m off to throw together an art blog entry.

Day 131.

Well, today was interesting.

I had a melodramatic, pessimistic break down in which I bitched about the paper route, and all the reasons I wish I’d have just gotten shopper routes.

I’m feeling a bit better about the whole thing, but I’m still nervous. I start on Monday so I still have a couple days to screw around before the reality of waking up at 4:30 every morning hits me.

I was going to get up at 5, but I would feel better getting up at 4:30, since all the newspapers on the route have to be delivered by 6:30.

Also… about the biking in the dark part. I deliver papers to a few apartment buildings for rich people, where I actually get to go inside, so I figure I can do those first so hopefully by the time I’ve gotten those done, it’s light enough outside for me to feel comfortable biking around and whatnot. I mean. I still have to bike all the way there in the dark, but… eh. I’ll deal with it.

I had a job interview at Best Buy today, and… it’s weird. I think I did better than I do on most interviews, but there were still some points where I froze up and didn’t say as much as I wanted. And I kind of felt like I was rambling for a couple of the questions, but I did much better than I usually do. At least I thought so. I won’t know until early next week, and there are like four other people they had to interview after me, so who knows.

There is a little matter of training. If I get the job, I have to either attend a week long training thing in Minnesota, or take the training over two weekends. Best Buy would pay for everything, so all I have to do is get there, which I’m sure can be arranged.

My allergies kicked my ass today and I just felt crabby and tired. And once the crabby wore off I was still tired for some reason.

I am going to finish this up and then probably get to bed. I know I have a couple more days to sleep in so it’s not an issue but I don’t want to be staying up super late.

+A light and fit yogurt (they were on sale, normally we don’t really keep yogurt in the house, and we never buy light and fit) and a bagel. One half I put honey on, the other half had raspberry jam.

+a weird sandwich. It was mostly tuna, but we only had like a tiny bit of ham left, so I just blended the tuna and ham together and regardless of how gross that sounds, it actually tasted pretty good. I also had some chips and A&E party dip. It’s the best.

+Tuna salad sandwich, with some sunchips. Normally I don’t eat sun chips because they did away with their compostable bags and that pissed me off. But the flavor we got was actually still in the compostable bag (apparently Original flavor doesn’t sell very well) so it was okay.

I also had an apple, some raspberry sherbet, and an icee. I think that’s it, but I could be missing something. Today wasn’t too bad for food actually. I didn’t really exercise though. I admit,  I have slacked off a little in the exercise area because soon I’ll have the paper route and will be biking a few miles every morning. Which I think is perfectly acceptable.

Tomorrow though I do want to bike to the library if the weather allows. I have a strange urge to watch Tarzan, and The Road to El Dorado.  And sadly we down own either of those movies. XD

Also, I might bike my paper route again, if I feel up to it. I don’t want to jinx myself so I’m not going to make any sort of assumptions as to how I think I’ll do on my first day.

Anyway, I’m off to finish up some internet stuff and then I’m off to bed.

Day 130.

Well, we’ve hit day 130.

I can’t imagine that most of you give a crap, but I start my newspaper delivery route on Monday. There’s no turning back now. I’ve signed papers, talked with the newspaper guy, and I’ve already been given a big bag of rubber bands, and some little plastic bags for when it’s rainy out.

I’m also nervous because… it’ll still be kind of dark out at that hour It will be a lot harder to find the houses in the dark. I’m probably going to take this electric lantern thing that is my dad’s. I mean, I haven’t asked him yet, but I don’t think he would care.
However, that would mean I’d have to fix the basket I have for my bike. It’s only got one screw left and it’s officially not fit to carry stuff in. I mean. I biked home one day and it was hanging on by one screw. Awesome.
I would have to get that fixed if I wanted to put the lantern in the basket. I feel like that’s a better idea than just holding it, or having it hang on the bike handle.

I don’t know. I’m really having some second thoughts. It’s one thing to deliver shoppers in broad daylight, but it’s another to bike across town at 5 in the morning.

I guess I can’t really judge until I’ve actually started the route, but… I’m just wishing I’d kind of thought this through better. I was so desperate for any income I just kind of called the guy without thinking about the fact that I don’t have a car, and I have to bike in a populated area early in the morning.

For that reason, I decided to buy the cheapass insurance they offer for 5 bucks a month. If I had a car and was driving there I don’t think it’d be an issue, but since I’m biking, I would feel better having that insurance.

I probably won’t ever have to use it, but… For fuck’s sake. I’m a 24 year old with no college degree, living at home, and I’m getting a damn newspaper route. I can’t afford to pay any sort of bills in the event that I am injured on the job.

Still. My plan right now is to give the paper route a try during the summer. I didn’t want to tell the guy, but I probably won’t keep delivering when it gets cold. I can’t bike when it’s 20 degrees outside and the roads are all icy. And I probably won’t have my license back by then.

Also, I didn’t stop to consider how much it’s going to suck to get up at 4:30-5am to bike across town to deliver damn newspapers during that time of the month when I have terrible cramps.

It just seems like my mind keeps coming up with more and more reasons why I shouldn’t have said I would take it.

I am considering getting a shopper route, since that only has to be delivered one day a week. That would be the type of thing I could handle when it gets cold. The only thing is, as little money as you earn for delivering papers, you make even less for shoppers.

And really, that all depends on whether or not I find a permanent job. I have an interview at Best Buy tomorrow at 1. In the unlikely but still possible event that I get that job (or any other year round job), I’d only be delivering papers for the summer.

A lot of that is speculation. I wish I didn’t have to resort to having a paper route. And really. Part of me is wishing I hadn’t said I would do it but I guess that’s just what I’ve been reduced to. I’m flat broke so I don’t have many options.

Anyway, I’m really grumpy and tired, so I’m just going to get on with this.


+maid rite on sandwich thins, with some taco chips and salsa

+ham, on sandwich thins, and some ruffles chips with light party dip

Also, I had some popcorn, a bowl of cereal, and some gummy bears. And I just remembered that we bought yogurt, so I’m going to have some yogurt. And probably another giant glass of water.

I’m also nervous because… it’ll still be kind of dark out at that hour It will be a lot harder to find the houses in the dark. I’m probably going to take this electric lantern thing that is my dad’s. I mean, I haven’t asked him yet, but I don’t think he would care.
However, that would mean I’d have to fix the basket I have for my bike. It’s only got one screw left and it’s officially not fit to carry stuff in. I mean. I biked home one day and it was hanging on by one screw. Awesome.
I would have to get that fixed if I wanted to put the lantern in the basket. I feel like that’s a better idea than just holding it, or having it hang on the bike handle.