Today was decent in most respects. I woke up right around 4:15. I think I set my alarm for like 4:20 so that was good. Alarms I set almost never go off. I’ll wake up 5 minutes before they’re going to go off. I can’t tell if my body would just naturally know when to wake up, or if it wakes me up so I won’t have to be scared awake by an alarm.
That really is the most unpleasant way to wake up. You’re in a deep sleep, and then you get ripped out of it by a damn alarm and you have to sit there for a few minutes before your heart stops pounding. Not fun.
I got on the road a little earlier than I did yesterday, which wasn’t really an issue except that it’s a little darker. And I did see a few bats, but I told myself they were birds over and over, so it made that a little easier (I’m afraid of bats even though they pose no threat). I did have to back track because I forgot to leave a paper at an apartment, but that was really my only issue.
I was done at around 6am, so that was cool. I could actually sleep in until 4:45 and probably still get all the papers delivered on time,(by 6:30) but I don’t like feeling rushed.
I tried to sleep at like, 7am, but mom was getting ready for work, and there was just too much ambient noise. And it was way too light out. I need one of those eye masks, I think. I don’t know. I like having some ambient noise, but with all the birds chirping, and people driving to work, and the tv and my parents talking, I couldn’t sleep.
I was kind of tired all day and didn’t really have much energy. I’m just going to have to get calibrated to this new system of doing things. I’m sure that in a week or two it’ll be second nature to go to bed at 9 or 10 and wake up at 4:15 or 4:30. It’s just the getting there that’s going to be weird.
I have to get used to eating at different times. I’m used to eating breakfast at 7:30 or 8. This morning I ate a granola bar and drank a glass of water while I was packing up the newspapers, and that helped a lot, but when I get home I’m hungry. I did eat a little bit when I got home. I hadn’t intended the granola bar to be my breakfast anyway. I just wanted to avoid that unpleasant low blood sugar feeling I had yesterday.
ANYWAY. It’s really strange eating breakfast so early, because then it’ll only be 9:30, and I’ll be starving because usually when I’ve been up for 5 hours, it’s time for lunch. And it can’t be time for lunch when it’s only 9:30. So from 9:30 until about 11 I end up having to fight off the urge to eat.
I don’t go overboard and eat a lot, but I am going to have to manage that hunger so I don’t undo all the exercise I’m getting every day. I’m excited about that, actually. I want to keep delivering the paper for as long as I can (because I kind of actually enjoy it) but I just can’t see myself biking clear across town in mid December, you know? The roads will be too icy/snowy, and my bike is not built for that kind of terrain, but I won’t want to quit because I’ll be losing my exercise regimen, and possibly my only source of income.
I hope to get a permanent job, and in the event that I do, I won’t put in my 30 days notice until early or mid October. Eh, whatever. I don’t have to worry about that for a while, so I won’t.
+A granola bar, at 4:20 in the morning.
+One toaster strudel
+a spicy black bean meatless burger (Morningstar farms) and some cheddar sun chips.
+Chunks of beef marinated in this sesame ginger marinade, a bottle of which has been in our pantry for ages. Also had some minute rice, and some lettuce with ranch and a few walnuts on it.
Also, I had like… two fortune cookies, a bowl of cereal, some graham crackers with this praline pecan stuff on them, and some circus peanuts (Every time I talk about those online I want to say “packing peanuts” and those are certainly not things I eat.. Lol).
Now, I’m off to make my nightly cup of calm down time tea (chamomile, usually) and submit an art blog entry.