-“Nothing Left to Lose”, by the Alan Parsons Project.
Well kids, 2008 is almost over. It’s been a really strange year. It kind of began with me spending New Years at my best friend Vanessa’s, getting completely tanked in three different bars, and at her house at the time. My camera got crushed under a couch, and I spent a subsequent five or so months not knowing that while the screen was busted, it still took pictures.
I got a summer job at PM Park. I continued to play in Municipal Band.
I visited my friend Vanessa again during the summer and we had fun taking walks, playing video games, taking pictures, having intelligent discussions and of course getting hammered (I’m guessing the last two didn’t occur at the same time).
My PM Park connections got me a job at the Colony Inn, which I am very lucky to have, by the way.
It’s just been a weird whirlwind of a year. To me, it seemed to pass a lot faster than previous years, for some reason. Probably because most of the people I know have had to go through a huge torrent of bullshit.
My dad got laid off from Winnebago after working there for five years. My mother had all sorts of school drama to deal with as did my brother, and I.. well. I struggled with some of the same things I always do, but at the same time, learned a lot.
PM Park taught me I can survive working 8+ hours a day which is going to be a handy skill in life. I also picked up on a few things such as, ‘You can’t always get what you want’, and ‘Work sucks but you have to do it, so you may as well deal with it’… Stuff along these lines. I also thought I learned that it could always be worse (which it could), but looking back, that’s kind of a downer way to look at life.
I don’t know how long that little sliver of optimism will last (probably not long, considering), but I take what I can get in that department.
My Christmas was enjoyable. I received my first mp3 player (a SansaClip 4G), 25 bucks from my Grandpa Pope, a 25 dollar gift card to my favorite coffee place, a calendar, a snowglobe, several cds including a 2 cd greatest hits set by the Doors and the Across the Universe soundtrack, and I got a 20 dollar gift card to Wal-Mart which I spent on headphones for my mp3 player, and speakers for my mp3 player).
All in all, I don’t have any room to complain and I have a whole hell of a lot to be thankful for.
Even though I do have a lot to be thankful for, I am really wishing that life would give some people I know a break.
My best friend is going through a hard time, what with quitting her waitressing job (barely any hours, co workers treating her like shit, etc), and her other job not working out (They had barely any business, plus a pipe burst at work), it’s like… of all the people in the world that deserve a truckload of shit, she got it? Fucking fuck people. She has loads of perserverance, doesn’t take any shit from anyone, she’s one of the nicest people I know, and she actually has a brain, for starters. She’s done her part, and if I could take on half the torrent of crap she’s going through to get some of it off her back, I would.
She’s the last person that deserved it, but that doesn’t change the fact that it happened. I know it’s hard to keep a positive outlook when things get like that, and believe me, I know I’m the last person most would suspect would be spewing optimism all over the place, but trust me, it will get better. It always does. You are a good person. Sure. Good people don’t always make it, but let’s face it, they have a hell of a better chance than people not-so-good people.
Just keep your chin up, and remember my computer’s on all day and my phone line’s always open (except when I’m sleeping). 😉 I know you’ll get through it because it’s the type of person you are.
Anyhoo. I’m visiting my best friend this Friday, but I’m still waiting for the details on when she would prefer I get to Ames. We were planning on me getting there around 6pm, but with the work situation being what it is, that time may have changed. I’m all open to any time so long as I’m there before dark.
Another update you may or may not have been waiting for. If you’re wondering about my sanity, it’s no better off. I continue to be driven mad, and that time of the month hasn’t helped matters along any. I haven’t stayed after work nearly as much which is depressing for my social life but better for my wallet. Oh well. When one door closes, another opens, they always say (I have yet to figure out who ‘they’ are).
In short, this year has been filled with a number of ups and downs. The major downs I could have done without, but if we didn’t have bad times mixed in with the good, we’d have no way to differentiate between them.
I wish you all the best in 2009 (Unless I don’t like you; then may you burn in hell).