Listen to the rhythm of the falling rain…

-‘Rhythm of the rain’, by Dan Fogelberg.

Well hello there.


I didn’t get the Kohl’s job, for starters. I got a BS letter saying that they selected someone else, but they enjoyed listening to my story… what a load of shit…. I’d actually be less insulted if they just came out and said “You weren’t right for the job” instead of pretending that they’re sorry they didn’t hire me. It’s so condescending… I haven’t heard back from the Heartland job either, but I have called them several times… Hopefully that will go through. If all else fails, there is still washing dishes at the PM Park restaurant, and playing in Community Band…

In other decent news, we sent in my tax return stuff. As I’ve said several times before, we may be able to get around fifty bucks back… And. I cleaned out dad’s newer truck, and his old one that’s going to the junkyard tomorrow, and with some other stuff, dad’s willing to give me 20 bucks. This is why I thought of the title I did, as just as I was almost done clearing out the cab of dad’s old truck, I got rained on. I almost put something to do with the wind, as yesterday and the day before, the wind was insane. I walked to the library, and I almost blew away, it was so bad… xD Anyhoo. Back to our regularly scheduled program already in progress:

Seven of the twenty I’m getting is buying a ticket to Quodlibet, the college’s variety show. This is the first time in like, two years that I haven’t been in it. I hope I will be come this time next year, but I figured… if I’m not in it, I want to at least see it… The theme is Rock of Ages, and I want to see what classic rockish retro stuff they come up with. I would have really liked to be a part of it, but I guess you can’t always get what you want, (I totally thought of the song while typing that, lol that was not my original intention).

Anyway. Back to the twenty. That gives me a total of 13 dollars towards getting another Fine Pix A600 digital camera off eBay. I only need around 30-40 bucks for that.. Actually, I just went on eBay and there are people selling them as low as 15-20 dollars, with only six for shipping… Anyway. If I get my tax return, I will have enough money to buy my camera back, and extra for gas and to start saving up for the 100 I need to re-open my savings account. Which is good news.

And, the PM Park job would pay decent money, since I’d be working every day that was humanly possible for me to work… I’m going to tell them that, whenever they need me, put me down. The more days, the better. I’d just have to give them my community band schedule as those would really be the only days I couldn’t work… Considering I’d start at PM park early in the morning, like, 8 or 9 I believe, and work until kinda late…  Even at six bucks an hour that’d be like, fifty bucks a day. And that’s being frugal about the estimation…

Anyway. I’m going to go relax for a bit.. It might have been the combination between these horrid sinus headaches I’ve been getting, and cleaning out dad’s truck (I found a newspaper from 1998, and a Mountain Dew can that still had the retro logo on it…Think along the lines of the logo on this tee shirt, if the link works…, but I’m feeling a bit strange (as if I didn’t all the time).. Anyway. I will talk to you later. Possibly tonight, after I see Quod, although I’m not promising anything. ;D



Good morning starshine, the earth says hello

Haha. You may remember in Charlie and the Chocolate factory when Johnny Depp said that, but it’s actually from a song by the 5th Dimension… It’s a catchy song. I once had it in my head for a couple of days straight…

Anyway. Moving on.
I was here to write about a dream I just had, when I thought hey. I should update my regular blog.

So anyhoo. My life hasn’t been extremely eventful lately. I mean, it’s not like I’ve done nothing, but I haven’t done a whole lot. I had an interview at Kohls on Monday. That wasn’t real eventful. I had to fill out this paper which was kind of redundant because 90% of the info I had to put there, I’d already PUT on my damn resume. I’ve never had to do that before… Then, this fat man interviewed me for all of ten minutes. Yeah. Ten minutes. Interviews are usually longer than that…
The job would be a few times a week. I’d have to come to work at 6am, but I’d only work till 10 or 11. So, nothing too bad. Except, there goes staying up late. But hey, I’d deal.

I’m still hoping I get the Heartland job back, because at Kohl’s, I’d only be getting about six bucks an hour. You get paid 7.50 at Heartland. Plus, you work longer. So I’d be making more money if I got the Heartland Inn job back. Besides. I kinda like not having to come to work at 6 am, but… there would be ups and downs to both…

And. If none of those come through, I still have the restaurant “PM Park” to ask about. Oh, the joys of washing dishes, am I right? xD But hey. It’d be some good money. My brother worked there last summer… The boss is so lax there.  My brother applying was practically a formality. The only thing that makes me feel a little weird are all the anorexic, preppy looking servers. They’ve got that whole “fakey nice” vibe around them, and I hate that. If you’re wondering how I know, I filled in for my brother one day when he was sick…


I forgot. So. Last weekend, I went shopping with my mom and brother. We went to Famous Footwear… I believe mom was there to see if a pair she’d looked at on a previous day were still there. We discovered a shoe sale. Or she had a coupon or something, I don’t remember. Anyway. I couldn’t find a single pair of shoes in the whole joint that fit me. They were either too narrow, or the heel like cut into my foot. Nothing fit. I was a bit upset by that. I don’t know why, but I just was. I was actually on the verge of tears. Which is stupid.. but I was.

Anyway. So, mom and my brother are trying to find any shoes that I find cute that would fit me, and I was about to cry when I told them, it’s okay, really. We just can’t find any that fit me. You go find some that fit you. Anyway, all that was happening when who should walk in the door but my favorite person ever (sarcasm), Chad. I was only in there long enough to notice his haircut was fucking ugly. But I told my brother “What the hell is he doing here?” and then my fight or flight kicked in… I practically power walked out of that store like nobody’s business.

I went into Fashion Bug, because that’s where my mom and bro were planning on going next. So, the entire time we’re there, I’m paranoid that Chad also brought his bitchy little on again off again wifey, and that she might go to Fashion Bug. So every time the door bell dinged, I whipped my head around nervously. I don’t want to even be on the same planet as those two, so being in the same store would be out of the question….

But. All that shit aside. I did find a pair of bright blue sequined flip flops that were cute. And that fit. Ha.

So anyway. That’s what’s been going on in the past few days.

Dust Off Your Butt and get your self respect back… You’ve known me long enough to know that I don’t play… Take it like you want it but you got to keep the faith…

-Michael Jackson, “Keep the Faith”.

It might be strange that I’m writing another entry so soon, since it’s usually a couple weeks in between entries. Ah well. Since my camera is still dead, I have nothing much to do. The weather is amazing outside (It’s 64 degrees!). I was perfectly comfortable in a pair of jeans, a tee shirt, and flip flops. Thank god. If I had to go one second more without decent weather, I think I would have gone insane. WAIT. Too late.

Anyway. My mom is off with my aunt to take my grandma out for her birthday, so my father, my brother, and I went to see 21. I didn’t have high expectations of it, as I haven’t heard many good reviews, but the movie was amazing. A lot of what I heard was people bitching about how much they used the line “winner winner chicken dinner”, but in reality, it was only in the movie four, maybe five times. Whoop de doo. Big effing deal. A preview on the Across the Universe dvd (I believe) dropped straight into the casino bit, but the movie is a lot more than just card counting. I won’t say  much else in case any of you want to watch it. All in all, I was pleasantly surprised. I confess, if it hadn’t had Jim Sturgess in it, I wouldn’t have wanted to see it so bad… On that note, he did a pretty good American accent, though you could still hear his native English accent on some words, which I found cute. All I have to say is… damn. He looks so hot when he’s wearing a suit.

Well. He could be in nothing more than a paper sack and still manage to look sexy.

But enough about that. Aside from that, not a whole lot is different from yesterday. I want to take a walk, but without a camera, I can’t be arsed to go anywhere. Shit. After I get my camera back, I’m going to walk so far my legs are going to fall off… But I know you’re tired of hearing about that as well. You. Lol. A grand total of 1.2 people read this blog, it’s not like I’ve got a huge audience or anything.

Damn. I was going to go to the library, but they close in five minutes. Oh well. Next time, perhaps.

In the sound of the waves and the cries of the seagulls circling the sand… in the fragments of the songs carried down the wind from some radio, in the murmuring of the city in the distance…

-Jackson Browne, “Sky Blue and Black”.

Howdie there all. It’s a beautiful, sunny day in Clear Lake. It’s 57 degrees outside. I can’t believe how nice it is.

Naturally, the nice weather is really making me wish I had my camera. I tried putting new batteries in it, and it is still stuck in video mode. What’s more is, it won’t even take new video clips any more.

But this isn’t all bad news. As I’m sure I’ve stated before, I can get exact copies of my camera on eBay for around 20-30 bucks, 30-40 bucks (respectively) including shipping. We still haven’t filed my taxes yet, which I intend to ask about today. If I can get the return that we’re thinking I can, I would be able to afford to buy another copy of my camera.

But, that could take… I don’t know how long. Forever seems a worthy option.

I think I’ve learned a valuable lesson from all this….

All is not lost, though. Today, I turned in an application at… dun dun DUNNNN…. Heartland Inn. When I went to pick up the application, the boss and the nice front desk lady were there and we chatted briefly. Chad (boss) asked if I was staying out of trouble. When I went to drop off the application, Chad was busy but I chatted with the desk lady some more. They still remember me and are still nice to me, so I’m hoping that gets my foot in the door. I’m a year older, and with work at Heartland anyway, a year wiser. As I stated, all these happenings have taught me a lesson, I think.

There’s more good news. I have an interview at Kohl’s on Monday. Frankly, I’d rather get the Heartland job back, especially since I still remember how to do the job at Heartland. I still know what cleaners I have to use, I still know where the laundry room is, still know where to get the keys, and I still remember what to put in what room, etc. Unless it’s work policy for me to listen to the forever long instructional cd, I could start work right away. I mean like, right now. I could have told Chad to hand me a smock and put me to work. I’d still know what to do.

If I do happen to get the Kohl’s job, I could work there during the week and work at Heartland on weekends (which is when they need the most workers anyway).

All in all, things are going slightly up, but that still doesn’t change the fact that my photographic brain is dying, and today is torturing it a little more. Still seriously considering pawning off my acoustic guitar, but I’d only get about 30 on eBay (therefore, I’m assuming I’d get a lot less at the pawn shop), and I’m pretty sure it’s worth more than that.

Anyhoo. I’m just getting on the brink of coming out of a particularly bad case of artist’s block. I might load a bunch of old pictures off of my camera to give me something to mess with until I can get another camera.

Actually, the camera I get depends on how much I’d make in my first few weeks/month at work. If it was more than 100 bucks, I might just go to Best Buy and see if they have any camera models in a $100-12o price range that would be compatable with my memory card. If it has more features, I might just get a different one. But as it is, I’m standing by my plan to spend 40 bucks to get my camera back. I’m just looking at my options here.

Okay, so I’m betting you’re really tired of hearing me babble about my camera. Well, good, because I was about to get off the computer and fold some laundry anyway. ;D