Random thoughts as the year’s end approaches

I know this is said several thousand times each year, but how time fucking flies.  I can’t believe it’s goddamned November already. I would say “I swear the time didn’t go this fast last year”, but I say that every year (I’ve heard that  as you age, your perception of time speeds up, so I’m sure that doesn’t help ).

Just as with every summer I say to myself “I’m going to really make this one count, I’m going to do so much summery shit that by the time fall rolls around I’ll actually be glad”  but in the blink of an eye the summer has flown by. Usually without me having done half of what I claimed I was going to do.

I’ve been kind of lazing about on getting a decent, conclusive blog entry about my Florida trip. It’s been two weeks and I haven’t even uploaded half my pictures to facebook yet.

Part of the reason for that is, yeah, I procrastinate. I’ll be all “I don’t feel like doing that shit right now”, especially since my computer is a slow piece of shit and likes to almost freeze in between each picture uploading… so it takes ages. Another reason I’ve not been too quick to upload anything is… it feels weird that’s it’s over and done with. I spent pretty much the whole of October thinking about it.

First, stressing about work and whether or not they’d give me time off. Then, anticipating the trip for a solid two weeks. And then it’s over just like that.

Thankfully, while I was there the time passed very slowly (and my friend can attest to this as well), and my monthly gift was unnaturally mild, which I also appreciated. And, the Howard Jones concert did not disappoint, even though my friend didn’t get to meet him, and he played a shorter set than the one I saw in Minneapolis this summer.

All in all it was a great adventure, and I guess part of the reason why I’ve been hesitant to upload a blog is because then I’ll have to really admit that it’s over. Which I’ve already kinda done. So I’m not sure what I’m going on about. It’s just weird. Also, just a couple days before I departed for Florida, I learned that I could have extended the trip by two days because I had two days off after the time I’d put in for from work

However, as with my Dolby concert experience in April, and my first Howard Jones concert in June, I’m not going to dwell on small details that could have perhaps made the trip even more enjoyable because sitting here and fretting about it isn’t going to poof me back in time to change things. It’s just going to piss me off. And being pissed without a viable outlet for the anger is no fun at all.

Anyway. The reason I decided to write this entry today is…I think I’m going to begin keeping a food journal again. I’ve gone straight back up to pretty much what I weighed before I took that paper route during the summer of 2011.

Part of me is annoyed and disappointed with myself because I had been down to like 235 pounds.

However, as I kinda said before, obsessing over what I could have done differently will not make it so. All I can do at this point is move forward. It’s easier said than done, but I’m trying.

That being said, I don’t think I’ll keep the food journal on this blog. I’ll probably make it a wordpress blog under the same username, however.

I’m not sure why I keep using this blog, as people rarely read it (it’s read even less now that Vanessa doesn’t really speak to me anymore, for some reason). Probably because I’ve had it for so long. I think I originally got one way back in 2006 because of the official Thomas Dolby forums for some reason. I think at that time he had a wordpress blog, so I think I probably created an account here so I could comment on entries. I can’t remember exactly. That was six goddamned years ago. Damn I’m old.

Anyway.  I’ve rambled on for far too long already so I’m going to cut myself off so you can all get back to your lives. lol

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