Day 203.

Today was err… interesting. If you haven’t heard, my bike is having problems (back tire is crooked, and the inner tube popped) and I was having issues because mom didn’t want me to ride her bike and the other two bikes we have are far too tall for me.

Well, she was up when I got up this morning and she gave me permission to use her bike. I’d say that took a weight off my shoulders, but the Sunday papers are massive, so it didn’t really. They legit weigh at least 30 pounds.  I usually put the majority of the papers in two bags, and then the last five or six that won’t fit in a little backpack satchel thingy. I weighed one of the large bags once and it was 20 pounds.

My shoulders actually still hurt, and I have a friction burn on my right shoulder. Fun shit. I mean, a lot of people have worked harder and longer than I have today… I’m not trying to outdo anybody.

Tomorrow dad is apparently going to take my bike into the bike shop and have it looked at. I hope it’s not too expensive to fix because I’m strapped for cash right now. All I have left of my last paycheck is enough to send in a fine payment.

Still. My bicycle is pretty much my only mode of transportation, so it is important that it works. My mother has to remind me that “Your car still works if you’d get your license back blahblahblahblahblah” but even if I had a car I wouldn’t drive the route. Defeats the purpose of using the route as a form of EXERCISE.

I was going to get a can of soda after I was done with the route but I was 5 cents short. Booo.

Anyway, the rest of the day was decent. My mother, brother, and myself did a bit of shopping. Browsed around the mall, Hy-Vee, Target, and Aldis, and we had more fun than we should have.

It got really hot later in the day. That I could have done without, but oh well. Better that than -30 degree temps.



+A piece of cornbread at 5am. 
I had a cinnamon roll when I got home from the paper route.

+Leftover eggplant parmesan, and a piece of cornbread. 
And a little bit of cottage cheese.

+A personal size pizza

I also had this really good like... cookie cake thing from hy-vee 
(it was a single serving thing), and a package of fruit snacks. 
And a few cola gummies.

Day 202.

This entry will be rushed as well, so sorry about that. Actually, I’m not. Nobody reads this blog, I’m not going to feel obligated to spend time on it. Not until it turns back into a regular blog.

+English muffin with cream cheese… and a few green pepper slivers with hummus.

+Eggplant parmesan.

+More eggplant parmesan, with a piece of cornbread.

Also, I had one of the bars I made yesterday. I also had a few generic goldfish crackers. I think that’s it, actually. I may have something else tonight but I’ll include that in tomorrow’s entry.

Day 201… tardy.

Uh, yeah. The family decided to go out for ice cream and then play board games afterwards. It was done kind of late-ish in the evening, and I was getting sleepy so I just took down what I ate in a note on my phone and figured I could post that today, no problem.

Besides, I don’t have regular enough readers to notice if I’m late with an entry so I suppose it doesn’t really matter.


+A bowl of cereal

+Lunchmeat sandwich with green pepper, and half a cup of cottage cheese.

+Ear of corn, and a sloppy joe sandwich. I had a couple bars I made, a small butterscotch malt, a couple mini charleston chews, and I’m fairly sure that’s all I had.

Day 200!

That’s right, kids. It’s my 200th day of daily blogging, and I must say… it’s been weird. I am not used to keeping up something quite that long. Only 164 more days of this being a food blog. Then it’ll probably go back to being a life blog I randomly post my thoughts in.

I’m not doing anything special or flashy for the 200th food journal post. In fact, I’m barely going to say anything at all. I have dishes to do and I’d like to get those over with so I can just piss around online until I go to bed.


+ two slices of thin lunchmeat at 5am. When I got home, I had an english muffin. Half of it had honey on it, half had that low fat cream cheese stuff.

+Two eggs scrambled with some chopped onion, and chopped green pepper. And a slice of cheese. And a half cup of cottage cheese.

+A morningstar farms spicy black bean burger with cheese and sour cream. On the side I had some broccoli and ranch dressing… half of which was fat free, half of which was regular.

Also, I had a cup of pudding with fresh blueberries… and we were out of graham crackers, so I sprinkled a few pieces of generic honey combs cereal on it. Also earlier I had some popcorn and this dip we make that is peanut butter and syrup mixed together. It sounds disgusting but it’s really tasty.

I’m pretty sure that’s all I had. I probably won’t eat anything else tonight, except maybe some watermelon if I get the munchies before bed. Considering the fact that it’s 7:30 at night and I’m usually in bed by 9:30 or so… I probably won’t have any.

Day 199.

Tomorrow we hit the big 2-0-0. Tomorrow will mark my 200th day of daily blogging. It’s actually the 209th day of the year tomorrow, but that’s still crazy.  Where has this year gone?

This is really the longest I’ve stayed with a project. I will probably continue to food journal after my 365 days are up, but I probably won’t post it online. I do still want to keep track but I don’t know that I’ll need to publish it.


+A half cup of generic goldfish crackers (they were chikadees, from Target) at 5am. After about 7:30 or so I had some cereal

+A bit of strip steak, some hash browns, and an ear of corn.

+A lunchmeat sandwich and an ear of corn (which I put a bit of butter on and sprinkled chili powder over. It was really awesome). And a small cucumber with no salad dressing.


Also, I had a few sour gummy worms, some marshmallows, a bowl of watermelon, and some blueberries. And a few more generic goldfish crackers.

I think that’s it. I probably won’t eat anything else tonight but if I do I’ll be sure to include it in tomorrow’s entry.

Day 198.

I’m going to hop in bed really quick, so I’m just going to post the food and get out of here.

+A lunchmeat sandwich at 5am.
I had a bowl of cereal after 8am.

+some taco chips and guacamole, and some raw broccoli with some ranch dressing (half full fat, half no fat).

+A lunchmeat sandwich with some chips and hummus.

Also, I had some sour gummy worms, a few starburst candies, 
a bowl of watermelon, two jr. fudge bars, and I believe that's it.



Day 197.

Today was a decent day, but I was just not in a great mood. I was depressed for no reason, then I was in that lovely mood where I constantly insult myself (You’re still really fat, your art sucks, nobody can stand you…you know, the usual), and then I was just in a bitchy mood. I’m not sure why.

This morning I gave the neighbor lady four pieces of zucchini bread… the zucchini bread that contained the first zucchini (or anything, for that matter) I harvested from my garden. Also, when I was out playing with the neighbor puppy, I saw a hummingbird. At first I thought it was just a giant scary bee or something but when I got a closer look I noticed it was a hummingbird, so that was pretty cool.

I know I’ve said this before, but when you’re in a better mood most of the time, the depression sucks that much more.

I’ve been more regularly happy, so much so that I start to think “Eh, I don’t have that depression problem anymore thank god”, then I’ll hit a day like today and remember that I’m not normal and I do still have issues.

Admittedly, I have fewer  issues than I would have had this time just a year or two ago, but it’s still really irritating.

Like my intense hatred for calling strangers on the phone. There are two dates in August that the family are going on little day trips and that I’ll need a newspaper sub for, and there’s a guy I need to call to see about subbing for me. He subbed for me twice before, but I still just really hate calling people on the phone. In most other areas of my social anxiety, I’ve either gotten rid of my fears or have whittled my fears down to a level where I can just overlook them, but this is the one big one that remains.

I don’t even like calling my friends, because I’m afraid I’ll catch them when they’re busy, at work, in class, sleeping, or they don’t feel like talking to me which is pretty stupid, but if there’s one thing I could be famous for, it’s my penchants for strange phobias.

Anyway, I still have an art blog to do as well as some dishes so I should get going.


+A piece of zucchini bread and a cinnamon roll

+Some mac & cheese, some steamed broccoli, and some chicken.

+A single serve little pizza I felt extremely guilty about eating because it was so unhealthy.

Also, I had a couple twizzlers, an apple, half a plum, a few reeses pieces and like 4 milk duds. And some dried fruit. 
I also had a bottle of wild cherry pepsi, because all the other kinds of soda in the machine were sold out. That was like 270 calories, so I felt I had to include it.
After that, I'm completely serious when I say I'm going to stop buying soda. If someone brings some home, I might have half a glass, 
but I am literally not buying any more for myself. I'm a fat and disgusting human being, and people can drop 
thirty pounds just by cutting soda from their diet. I'm clearly not making enough progress so I have to do something.